Friday, October 22, 2010

What about the Mom?!

I have waited to post an update on MY general well-being until my 6 week post-partum checkup. Mostly because I felt like after that, I would have mellowed out a bit and my hormones wouldn't be so wackadoo.

I'm not sure if that's true but my appointment was yesterday so here's the update.

I am pretty happy with how quickly I've been shedding the 35 lbs. I gained while pregnant. I still have 6.6 to go - and have had that amount for 3 weeks now. What I am surprised about is that half of my pre-baby clothes still do not fit. I had friends tell me that you could lose all the weight that you gained but that your body would still be forever different. I hope that does not mean that I am stuck with this poochy belly for the rest of my life. If so, buh-bye bikini. For the most part, I think the weight was dropped from a combination of breastfeeding, taking walks with the stroller, bouncing Maggie to calm her down, and not eating. Yes, there are days when I will get to dinner and think, "did I eat today"? I'm getting better about remembering to eat though!

I also started running about 2 1/2 weeks ago. A coworker asked if I felt like my uterus would fall out. No. Everything "down there" felt fine. What did not feel fine was the bounce of my porn-star breastfeeding boobs. In fact, I felt like going for a run much earlier than I did but could not go b/c my pre-baby sports bras only covered half of each boob. For real. So I had to go get some a new one. Even with that and a compression tank top, I wouldn't say it is entirely comfortable to run. Good thing I can only make it a mile or two anyways. Regardless, that first post-baby run felt amazing!! I felt so light - the last time I ran was when I was 32 weeks pregnant and 25 lbs heavier.

Currently I am reading "Run Like a Mother". It is very inspiring. It has been hard to figure out the best time to run. Ideally, it would be right after Maggie eats so that the boobs aren't as full, and when Nate is home. So that leaves me with running at 4:30 AM or 7 PM. Neither of which are real high energy times for me.

In other activity, I printed out this Pilates Playtime workout from the Fit Pregnancy website that I can do with Maggie. She seems to like it. My abs (or what's left of them) do not.

Mentally, motherhood has been strange for me. Pre-baby, I totally thought, "I am a really good multi-tasker so I am going to get so much stuff done on maternity leave."

HA HA HA. What the HELL was I thinking?!

Although this has been getting better with each passing week, the days fly by so fast and really I spend the majority of each day taking care of the baby - THIS is why this blog has turned into an all-out Maggie fest. When she sleeps, I am doing laundry or on the Internet. This week, I have been appalled by how much time I have been on the Internet, so I might have to set some limits. If I limited my Internet time, I probably WOULD have time to read or start some sewing projects. It's much easier to lay on the couch with my Mac. And honestly, it is only very recently (like in the past week) that she has slept with some regularity during the day anyways.

I haven't turned on the TV at all during my leave. I have noticed this pre-baby as well - I'm just not that into daytime TV. I suggested getting rid of cable once and my husband retaliated with "Then we would get rid of Internet". HELL NO! We all have our vices I guess - his is TV, mine is Internet.

In the past 6 weeks, I have read 1 1/2 books (of the non-board book variety) and a couple magazines though so all hope is not lost.

The biggest thing to adjust to, and I heard this a lot, is not having adults to talk to. Maggie will probably talk at age 2 months with the amount that I talk to her to compensate. I have had a few friends stop over during the day and I feel like I talk their ear off. It's like, "OOH!! AN ADULT!!! I DON"T KNOW WHEN I WILL GET ANOTHER ONE OF THESE SO MUST. TALK. AS. MUCH. AS. POSSIBLE."

Another thing that is weird is not working. I honestly don't remember the last time I did not have to get up and go to work. Probably 7th grade. That has been an adjustment. Admittedly, I still check my work email almost daily. I don't respond but I check it.

And then there is my mood. I think it has stabilized more now but wow was I all over the place. I was really worried about post-partum depression before I gave birth. Thankfully, I haven't had any issues with that. I think a lot of it ties to sleep deprivation. Unfortunately Nate got the brunt of the mood swings. On one hand, I would be really happy to see him when he came home from work and on the other, I was so tired from the day that I would just snap at the slightest thing. Now that we are all getting a bunch more sleep, it seems better. We also had different experiences with things. While he would say yes to any one that wanted to come over, I did not always want visitors. I don't know how to explain it - It wasn't that I wasn't excited to show off Maggie, but I just wanted time to chill out with my family and not have to be "on" for visitors. This since has mellowed out as well.

One of the baby-related email newsletters I got this week said if you can get through the first 6 weeks, you're golden. I can relate to this - both in dealing with the baby but also in my own personal physical and mental health. I now feel a lot more "normal" than I have since the Magster arrived.

She might beg to differ with that statement (see yesterday's post) :)


Old MD Girl said...

Your belly will get smaller, you Miss. Former-Vickie-S-Model. For the love of god, stay away from the tankini though, unless you can (by some miracle) find one that is not hideous.

If all else fails, try a one piece. They can be sexy too!

So glad to hear you're doing so well! I also have an internet addiction problem, though I did succeed in getting rid of the cable! Heehee.

Silky Jess said...

Hmm, this all sounds so familiar (although it took me longer to lose the weight or start running). Make sure you're eating, though... my nursing bangs are back after 5 months with Zoe, and it's not a good thing to lose this much hair.

Your body will recover if you keep up with running and pilates, probably just in time for you to start thinking about a second little one (yes, I know it seems far off now). I am with you in hating that little pooch, even if the rest of you has mostly shrunk back to normal size. It took me almost a year to get rid of that last time, even with regular workouts (and, as noted above, it was just in time to be in shape for a couple months before being pregnant again).

I'm glad you're feeling well overall. Recovery from 9+ months of pregnancy and a delivery is not easy.